Well that was incredibly hard work. I hate it when something is mentioned and I immediatelly I am "back there". Frozen with fear, unable to speak, can 't move. It happens so easily and even with Rob who is completely trustworthy. And afterwards it takes me a long time to come back to reality and feel grounded and in the present again. I am really tired. I wish it was one of those things where I could do therapy non stop for a week solid and be done with it! But I can't. I am to tell myself two things over and over for the next week. 1. I did not let this happen to me 2. I am like a rabbit in the headlights, frozen with fear and that's not my fault I respond that way. Rob said other feelings may come up because of that, like anger. Wonder what I am supposed to do with that? Would quite like to be able to bash those necessary but apparently revenge isn't the best idea. Sometimes sounds perfectly reasonable to me....